Consistently will pay off in the end. Years ago, I begged God to give me a voice. In my mind, I needed him to open my mouth to speak in front of people, but little did I realize the voice he gave me would be through writing. I started by posting Bible verses; then, I became brave and added commentary or an analogy. I committed to posting daily and have been posting biblical messages since 2015. It's not always good, but I'm committed and consistent, and my heart is right. Whatever task God assigns to you, do it diligently. Remember, some will accept the gospel's message and see it as life; others will reject it to their own demise, but we are responsible for getting it out there. Hopefully, others will see God's grace in it, accept Jesus, and live in eternity. We are the sweet aroma of Christ as we spread the word of his love, grace, and mercy. I want to encourage you to keep trying; at some point, God will make your assignment clear, and like me, you will be grateful.
But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere. For we are the aroma of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing, to one a fragrance from death to death, to the other a fragrance from life to life. Who is sufficient for these things? For we are not, like so many, peddlers of God's word, but as men of sincerity, as commissioned by God, in the sight of God we speak in Christ. 2 Corinthians 2:14-17