September 9, 2022

As a person who likes everything neatly pulled together, I've learned to tolerate the messy. I can see a pattern in my behavior that goes back to my childhood. One Sunday, I had to go to Sunday school without socks, and I was devastated and remembered it like it was yesterday. I like to look good and want everything surrounding me to look good, and I continue to strive for that daily. However, since the beginning of this year, God has taken me in a direction that pushes me to the limits of my tolerance. I realize now that he was breaking me of perfectionism and teaching me to embrace my surroundings even though it lacks perfection. I've had to relent and allow him to be in control. How can we see him move in our lives if we control everything? It has been a good lesson for me. If we want perfection, it's only available in God through our Savior, Jesus. This world is messy, and so are my surroundings. The training process is slow, and I'm sure it's not over yet, but at least I now recognize what he's doing. Not only is he teaching me to surrender to him, but he is giving me things to write about and lessons to share. We are only perfect in Jesus; surrender to him and make life easier on yourself.

For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. 2 Corinthians 5:21