December 12

This morning, I was thinking about my wanting to live at the beach. It’s something I’ve desired for as long as I can remember. My prayer was always, “Lord, I want to live on the beach, and I would be happy even if it’s just a shack.” I never expected to ever have a place at the beach, but somehow God worked it out for me. I’ve been at the beach for the past week and never set foot on the sand; in fact, I barely moved off the couch. God knows us more than we know ourselves, and maybe we ask for things we think we want, and he gives us a taste of what we ask to show us we thought wrong. Now I question whether I still have that desire. I’m certainly not ungrateful, and I love getting away for a bit of time, but he has shown me things to make me question my heart. Now, I pray that he shows me the truth about my heart's desires, that which is in me that hasn’t revealed itself. Today, if you haven’t already asked, ask God to help you see the truth about your desires and for him to show you the depths of your heart. I believe you will find true contentment if you listen to him.

You desire and do not have, so you murder. You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel. You do not have, because you do not ask. You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions. James 4:2-3