Even though you have been cleared of all charges, you remain in chains. The enemy’s power over you is so strong, you don’t know how to be free. You replay in your mind, over and over again the reasons for your captivity, because no other being could possibly release you from the consequences of your heinous acts, not even Jesus. You say you know Him, but you do not rely on Him completely, and feel that you haven’t suffered enough for the crimes you committed against Him. When will you fully believe that your sins are forgiven? He did not come to torment you for your past transgressions, He came to relieve you of them, so you will become a powerful and useful tool for His cause, and so you will live your best life while you are in this world. Reach down deep, and clear yourself of the charges, and turn away from the power of darkness to the power of Jesus. Give up the guilt and use the scars of your past to help release others from their imprisonment. You say you want peace, well, this is how you get it.
to open their eyes, so that they may turn from darkness to light and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.’ Acts 26:18